This week I feel like I had the rug ripped right out from underneath me. I have 3 jobs that I love and am good at. One of them, hospice nursing, has been my identity since I graduated from nursing school. While I took a little break a few years ago, I was so thankful to find my way back and have been in a routine for the past 8 months. While I completely understand the necessity for nurses to be flexible, as a newly self employed nurse I’ve really loved “running the show.” So when I was told my current role as a PRN case manager for a building I’ve been working in since October was no longer needed, my first response was sadness and then it was once again clear why I’m just not built for jobs where someone else dictates my life. As a former hospice manager, I’m not upset about the “why,” but now as a “floor” nurse (i.e not in a leadership position), I’m heartbroken over losing my patients.
Not only that, but because each job is carefully sewn into the others, losing one impacts my days and my income. Yes, I’ll be able to pivot, but it was a good reminder of why I decided to leave corporate America and other people making decisions for me.
My goal has always been to rely mostly on IVs. But I struggle with being ok with a guaranteed small amount of money from life insurance physicals and hospice to the potential for a large amount of income from IVs. I continue to look for opportunities for events and I have to remind myself that I'm brand new to all of this and it's not going to be incredibly lucrative from day 1. I am eager to see the direction that all of this takes, but need to be patient with the process while being open to any and all possibilities and opportunities.
